Happy 5-Day Holiday to Us!!

Dear Blog!

Guess what??!! Today's Thursday.
Mmhmm.
and it's the 4th of December.
Mmhmm.
Nothing special there.
Mmhmm.
But WAIT!

Dah cuti dah!! hehehe (too bad for all of you yang ada class esok..bwuekk!)

Oh god, I'm so happy. Staying over at K1 is like, not living nor dying. Feels like my spirit's just wandering around with nothing to do. It's SOOOO boring.

THINGS TO DO DURING THE HOLIDAY :

1. Spend time with family and friends
2. Eat right, sleep right (very important)
3. Organize my notes
4. Finish PBL (it's about Giardiasis people!!)
5. Buy a new pair of jeans, shoes and...stuff
6. Buy those ring thingys for my notes
7. Re-stock food supply in my room (very crucial)
8. Play Ragnarok Online! (owh yeah!)
9. and other miscellaneous stuff

Owh snap! Can't wait, hehe. By the by, I finished reading the sequelae of Twilight, New Moon. Awesome too! Only, a bit disappointed with the fact that my Jasper wasn't really there and that the Cullens weren't really emphasized in this one. It was more about Jacob. I mean, yeah he could've been cute and all. But his temper, whoa'hoa... "please stop the car and lemme out right now, eh?" (figure of speech. nothing literal). But all in all, this one's more action-packed compared to the first one. Can't wait to see how the director envisioned this one. And! I can't wait to read the next book, Eclipse. It's waiting for me at home and calling out my name while I slumber (OK, that's freaky).

p/s: HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY TOK MUM!! I love you with all my heart and soul. Farah doakan InsyaAllah panjang umur, sihat semua. =)

I'm so sorry I didn't call, I didn't have enough credit to do so. I'm relying on my 150 free SMSes I got from Maxis. But, I'll make it up to you this weekend OK? XOXO muahhx!

l e n a out~

Nothing But an Empty Bottle

Dear Blog,

Ever since I ended my 3rd semester, I've realized myself being more sluggish.

• I am less attentive during lectures
• I actually SLEEP in the lecture hall
• I find any possible opportunity to skip lectures
• I get bored during PBL sessions, not wanting to speak up like I used to
• I dont TOUCH my notes at all, therefore it is disorganized
• I lack excitement for my trips to PPUKM (that's not a surprise, though)

I can actually give you 101 examples but for now, let's just leave it at that.

Can somebody please help me? I don't think this is the right moment for me to lament on my choice of career, but I somehow feel as though my life is slipping away from me everyday. I am not social (I'm more of a family-person than going-out-with-friends kinda gal). I don't have a soulmate, for me to pour my heart and soul and to confide in (That chapter of my life has always been nothing but blank pages, hasn't been plotted and might as well never be). I'm jumping into a career path that my big bro, Anwar thinks "how very unlike you Farah". I'm 20 and already bored with life.

When is something exciting going to happen? What IS excitement anyway? Have I ever felt true excitement, or have I not even come close to the word 'excite'. All I know is, something better come up or I'll start doing something silly. However, please spare me those "when are you gonna change and start meeting new people from different crowds?" philosophy. I really am NOT the social type. Even if I can mingle sometimes, it's really difficult for me to click with someone I barely know. Trying to create a conversation proves to be tedious at times, and I really prefer you giving me an OSCE exam than that (you know how much I hate OSPE/OSCE exams. But at least I'm better at impulsive physical examination than commencing spontaneous conversations with a stranger).

Seriously, I have no idea what I'm blogging about but I just felt a sudden urge to. Maybe that's it for now. I feel tired. I have a histology practical tomorrow, and I haven't read anything about it. Scratch that, I haven't been reading anything about this new module of ours 'The Gastrointestinal Tract System' (G.I.T. for short). I have PBL on Thursday, and I also haven't been doing that. All in all, I've neglected my responsibility as a student and I'm so very disappointed in myself for being so ignorant and stupid. I have let my family down.

So when will I resurface and wake up again? Who knows. But what I do know is, I'm not really enjoying my life right now. And that would be my fault entirely, of course. I just ask of you this favor, do not touch this subject in my face. I wouldn't wanna get POed or anything like that. The only time I can get a peace of mind is when I'm with my family, and sometimes friends. l e n a out~