gulp, double gulp

Dear Blog,

I guess, I don't really know what to write about since I already made a Diary entry today. But, since it's been awhile...I guess I'll drop a few lines (knowing me, a "few" is really an understatement).

So, we had our briefing today by our dear beloved Prof. Har, about programs going on for final year students and about our PPD camp this 6th June. *gulp*

Emmm...Is it ok for me to say that I'm actually scared? I mean, honestly...I don't really know how I got here. Not to sound ungrateful or whatever...I have been blessed by God and am grateful for the wonderful people around me who have helped so much and played such an important role in my life. I am thankful.

But, really...? 5th year? Am I really gonna start work next year? (Insyallah if I pass my pro exam)

Thank God for Prof's hilarious briefing, it kinda lifted some of the stress in me. My God! Haven't even started them postings yet and I'm already starting to feel the heat *tugs on collar*

I asked some of my friends about their input on being in the final year, and they were like "ntah...tak rasa pape pun. belum lagi kot"...oohh...yay...so it's just me then yang ter-overexcited? LOL.


To top it off, my first posting's Paeds(this word deserves the color red)!?!!! Urghhhh...I cannot believe my "luck". Of all the "wonderful" and "exciting" postings...I was allocated to my "favorite" posting of all time. Yay. Can't wait for another episode of complete blankness and utter humiliation.

Take it easy Farah. Alotta our seniors made it through, what makes you any different, right? That's a positive way of seeing things. Plus, you've gone through alotta BS through-out the years, what's another year..ey?

Takutnya...Paeds? *double gulp* Even though Alhamdulillah my previous Paeds result was ok, I still can't believe I'ma hafta go through all that again? I mean, seriously...most of the postings feel long and very, very "dragging"...but Paeds...it felt like forever! Like..."bilalah nak habis posting nih?"

But, I can't wait for the posting after that...O&G! Yay! (minus the sarcasm) It's been a long time, but hopefully before stepping into this posting...I'll be ready..body, mind, and soul. (hmmmm...and why am i not like this for other postings?)

Oh, ok. Finally! Feeling a bit sleepy now. Just wanted to do something to pass the time. Niters peepz!

.this girl is crackin' up, l e n a.