something amiss?

Dear Blog,

I am bored of that species already.
I'm pretty sure they're bored of me too.

Otherwise, I'd be happy with at least one of them.

But, no. I'm not. And frankly, maybe never will be.

The other day, one of those species contacted me at YM..again..and said..

"hey awek!"

Right. Who in the right mind would respond to that?
Wasn't it you who told me to "Blah laaa" the other day?
So did I reply his message?

Nope, I didn't.

I was busy studying anyway, and regretted not cloaking myself with Invi.

Let this be a lesson to you and your other species. Just stay away. At least for now.

I'm ready when I say I'm ready. One of the reasons why I live a solitary life is because of this. No one understands me. First impression would be, "Farah? Macam sombong je". But after getting to know me, most people would think otherwise (most, I didn't say all).

And another thing that I'd like to point out is, most guys are scared of me. What? Am I intimdating? Am I such a snob that no one would even dare to approach me? To even look at me would be a massive sin?

So when I asked my hermanas about this, they told me to approach people differently. Smile more and talk more. So I tried it a few times. Smiling to other girls is no problem for me. It's the guys that are a problem. I tried doing that a few times, and the guy actually thought I liked him. lol. Way to go hermanas, what an excellent advice. So, if you're a guy and you're reading this. I would really, really appreciate your opinion on how to approach you and your kind.

I asked Izzet, Leanna's boyfriend about my first impression towards him. He stuttered at first, which I thought wasn't a good sign. Stuttering meant delaying. Delaying meant filtering. Filtering meant I won't get much truth out of him (Darn!). So, yeah he said that I look like an intelligent person and if guys were to approach me, they'd have to have intelligent topics to talk about. Not just craps like, "what's your favorite color?" or "dah makan?". I would definitely give a short and simple answer and...BYE-BYE. You'll just be the "owh, he's just some guy I had a short chat with. Asking me my favorite color and stuff" guy.

Another relevant piece of info I got off from Izzet was, I'm a lil ganas? I really, really didn't know that. Could it be this that scares guys off? If it is, then I'm really sad. I don't know what's ganas about me? The way I talk? Can't be, I don't talk much. The way I walk? Possible, I have a somewhat awkard gait.

I'd like to offer an apology to you guys. I never meant to scare you, all of you. I guess it just comes naturally. I wish I could change that about myself, but I don't really know how. What's the point anyway coz it wouldn't be me. And I would really be amazed with the next guy that comes along and likes me for me. That's a lil far-fetched though. But is it really asking too much? Thus, my conclusion is this. I'ma die an old spinster, just like Jane Austen =(

. a rather depressed l e n a.