For the sake of blogging

Dear blog,

I realized that I have totally Diary-a-fied you. But, s'all good...right? hehe

Anyways, thanks to the rapid internet connection in K1 (note the sarcasm) I haven't had the opportunity to blog recently. So, here I am blogging...for the sake of blogging I guess.

I have this heavy burden on me. It feels as though the gravity is pulling me there, at my chest region. Where it should be pulling is actually my butt and thighs due to the high fat composition! haha.

The factors contributing to the chest load:

1. Medic
2. Medic
3. Medic
4. Financial instability
5. Family instability
6. Mental instability
7. Emotional instability

There are 7 factors, 3 of which are due to my studies. OK, 3/7? That's like 42.86%, which is almost half of the total chest load. So what does this tell me?

.I don't know, you tell me.

Yeah, sure. If real life problems can be solved by using mathematical equations (save the show called Numb3rs), I'd be fat and happy.

Exam's in less than 4 weeks to go. So, you know the drill. I'd like to share a lil piece of info on how I study.
Days/Weeks til Final Exam:

• 4 weeks - Chillin'
• 3 weeks - Wondering why everyone's staying back at the library
• 2 weeks - Mad at a few groups for making me stressed seeing them study
• 1 week - Uh-oh...study week. 24hr study time (minus the daily routines)
• 1 day before - Study late at night til the morning after (a few hours before the 1st exam paper)

and that "1 day before" routine persists til the end of exam week. Imagine the sleep deprivation state that I will be in. Tsk, tsk.

How come I don't just study at a minimum of one month before, you ask? In a simpler way to answer that, I'm more of a last minute kinda gal. So, my studying period begins when or IF I have the mood to study. Imagine that, eh? It's so hard. Even when I look at other students study, I'd feel stressed out. But even that, isn't enough to make me have the mood to study. That mood just automatically and involuntarily comes at precisely 1 fudging week before finals. What am I supposed to do til then? Sit back and wait? I have to DO something! I'm a medical student for goodness sake! I am studying at a degree level, and it's career after that stage. I still imagine myself as a student in school. Taking education a bit lightly, and tak sedar diri, prioritizing on my social experience and sports more than my studies.

What kinda doctor will I end up being if I continue on like this? Haiyaa.. I'm so stressed out...sometimes I think I stress over nothing, and yet, it's everything. Could it be that medical students enjoy being stressed? That's why a few of us study at the very last minute? To get that stress rush, and insyaAllah if we get a reasonable result we'd feel more content? If that's the case, then I say "shame on you medical students".

Dahlah, I'm too malas to express my thoughts on medic. It'd be a lifetime full of blog entries to actually finish. Til then, I'd like to tell myself "padan muka!" hahaha

l e n a out~