as vivid as it gets

Dear Blog,

I was afraid I might forget how she would look like. It's been so long since she left, with only pictures and memories to reflect upon.


But, I dreamed of you last night. I felt both emotions of joy and sorrow, for in that dream, I did not know I was in deep slumber. It felt so real. And it had been so long since any of us had a dream about you.

You did not speak nor did you reply when I asked you questions. You were just there, with Tok Wan, looking oh-so happy. I only vaguely remember what happened in the dream, but all I know is when you did not say anything, I knew something was wrong. And in that dream, I cried.

Then, I was awaken by the sound of my alarm clock *5.30am*

I opened my eyes, and real tears came out...gushing like nobody's business.

Rindunya Tok Mum. We wished you were there with us to celebrate Intan and Shafiq's wedding *great, now i'm in tears. bongok betul*


Mommy said both she and Mak Lang were talking about Tok Mum the night I got the dream. Coincidence?

I pray that you're ok and that you're happy, wherever you are. Always.

.Love you. l e n a.